I am harsh!!!

Yes, I am harsh for certain moment. Harsh means unpleasant? uncivil? rude? cruel? Well, I might said something that is so harsh, i didn't realized, but i mean it. I want to see positive change in your life. Not always depend on or live on a voice over the phone. There are much more things out there you should learn, know, see, listen, touch, sense, hold, believe, discuss, talk, touch, share about. Good luck for growth... Hope that what i said will make you awake, but not too hurt. We always love you. God bless...

What so special about today?

I am now having drink at coffee bean with Ashley and Lynn. One computer each person, facing to individual's screen.

Actually, we were planning to donate blood today in the HSA blood bank right in front of one of the Singapore MRT station. End up, only Ashley is eligible to donate. Lynn was donated her blood just a week ago, however she received a sms telling her she is eligible to donate blood. She knew she got to wait for another 3 months before she could donate again. She was thinking "why not?" since the sms said it's eligible for her to donate blood. Tried her luck. Thing not going smooth as she wish.

I didn't donate blood for the pass 3 months. I got almost 8 hours of sleep last night, I believe i got enough iron, since I am so fat. ;p However, I was still unable to save life for the moment. Only because I am a foreigner without any fin number and didn't resident in Singapore for the pass 6 months. But just about 2 to 3 months ago I was working there for about 7 months. So strange?

What can i do?? Enjoy coffee. Cheers. Happy papa day!!! I love you!

I don't want to be the hamster on the running roller!

Just talk to an very old friend of mine over the phone for about one and a half hour. That's the longest phone call i have ever make. This phone call reminded me lots of things, things that need to be changed for good life.

1) I realized that I have always living in a circle. I know my problem, I did changed for several times. After some period when I faced with a newer choice or difficulties, I will go back to the same circle, like the hamster on the same running roller.

2) My friend complaint that I never know how to appreciate myself. I feel I can hardly appreciate what I did, I always feel my idea or anything come out from my mouth is not as good as other people.

3) I need to put down or lower down my expectation. I always demand myself to achieve above the average standard. I may want a lot of things. However I need to let go some of them or I won't be able to move ahead, as those expectation will hold me back each time I try to move ahead.

4) What I really want in my life. Seriously, I am completely lost in my direction. I don't know what I want. I only know I need to become a money making machine.

5) Overly depend on others guidance. All this while I always have some one to assist me in my problem. However, as problems solved, my problem become greater where there are no one could actually help me. And I am still hoping I could get a mentor to assist me. And I know this is completely wrong!!!

If you are close to me, you maybe already knew all this issues. I really need to Make a change. I can't afford to be the hamster on the same running roller in my life!!!

Book of the day

Book: How to stop worrying and start living

Lesson 1: Live in Day-tight Compartments

Ask yourself a few questions

1) Do I tend to put off living in the present in order to worry about the future, or to yearn for some "magical rose garden over the horizon"?

2) Do I sometimes embitter the present by regretting things that happened in the past - that are over and done with?

3) Do I get up in the morning determined to "Seize the day" - to get the utmost out of these 24 hours?

4) Can I get more out of life by "living in day-tight compartments"?

5) When shall I start to do this? Next week? ... Tomorrow?... Today?

[Sources: Carnegie. D, How to stop worrying and start living - Time tested methods for conquering worry, 1984]

P/s: The above posting is not-for-profit sharing only.

What it takes to cause Anxiety?

Minored in Psychology doesn't mean you will be free from getting anxiety or any other negative emotional symptoms.

I know it's normal to be anxiety when start to take on new challenge which you never thought of doing that. It's going to be a totally new experience for me to be in Sales.

So, what it takes to cause anxiety?

Maybe I am just still lack of confidence about my own ability, self-esteem is also away from me for the moment.

Just hope that there will be a clinic when I can get consultation and perhaps some medicines or vitamins. LOL.......

心病还需心药医。Don't you think so?

I am still very much alive!!!

Since the last posting, i have not been updating my blog... Sorry sorry... And i am back here to keep my love one (I mean all my friends and family) updated of my condition...

My previous problem was solved.

And

of course as one problem solved, human will keep looking for new problem.

So I moved on..

my current challenge is to get a new and experience rich job.

hahaha....

and don't worry about me. I am doing fine. ciao first!!!

Dear Housemate,

This post is directly composed for my dear housemate who always like to address others as "Sho Hai" which mean stupid. I hope that you will understand the purpose of writing this post. Everyone will have their own right to do what they want to do or buy what they want to buy or even listen to what kind of song they want to listen to.

What you need to do is give people a little bit of respect towards people interests or actions. Never use yourself as a guideline for all, you may not be always right. Just have little bit of respect ok? I never mean to be rude to you or trying to make you feel embarrassed. I just want you to understand that I am not happy for what you had said this morning.

I live not because of your comment or your compliment. You don't play any core role in my life. However, anytime if your comment make sense for me, i will still accept it. Again, and Please USE YOUR BRAIN BEFORE YOU TALK, OK? BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT THE GOD TO DECIDE WHO IS STUPID OR WHO IS SMARTER. Thanks for spending your time to read. Hope that the message will go to the person i mentioned.