What so special about today?

I am now having drink at coffee bean with Ashley and Lynn. One computer each person, facing to individual's screen.

Actually, we were planning to donate blood today in the HSA blood bank right in front of one of the Singapore MRT station. End up, only Ashley is eligible to donate. Lynn was donated her blood just a week ago, however she received a sms telling her she is eligible to donate blood. She knew she got to wait for another 3 months before she could donate again. She was thinking "why not?" since the sms said it's eligible for her to donate blood. Tried her luck. Thing not going smooth as she wish.

I didn't donate blood for the pass 3 months. I got almost 8 hours of sleep last night, I believe i got enough iron, since I am so fat. ;p However, I was still unable to save life for the moment. Only because I am a foreigner without any fin number and didn't resident in Singapore for the pass 6 months. But just about 2 to 3 months ago I was working there for about 7 months. So strange?

What can i do?? Enjoy coffee. Cheers. Happy papa day!!! I love you!

I don't want to be the hamster on the running roller!

Just talk to an very old friend of mine over the phone for about one and a half hour. That's the longest phone call i have ever make. This phone call reminded me lots of things, things that need to be changed for good life.

1) I realized that I have always living in a circle. I know my problem, I did changed for several times. After some period when I faced with a newer choice or difficulties, I will go back to the same circle, like the hamster on the same running roller.

2) My friend complaint that I never know how to appreciate myself. I feel I can hardly appreciate what I did, I always feel my idea or anything come out from my mouth is not as good as other people.

3) I need to put down or lower down my expectation. I always demand myself to achieve above the average standard. I may want a lot of things. However I need to let go some of them or I won't be able to move ahead, as those expectation will hold me back each time I try to move ahead.

4) What I really want in my life. Seriously, I am completely lost in my direction. I don't know what I want. I only know I need to become a money making machine.

5) Overly depend on others guidance. All this while I always have some one to assist me in my problem. However, as problems solved, my problem become greater where there are no one could actually help me. And I am still hoping I could get a mentor to assist me. And I know this is completely wrong!!!

If you are close to me, you maybe already knew all this issues. I really need to Make a change. I can't afford to be the hamster on the same running roller in my life!!!