Secrets exposed on a foreign land...

I am harsh!!!

2010-01-14T06:45:00.000-08:00

Yes, I am harsh for certain moment. Harsh means unpleasant? uncivil? rude? cruel? Well, I might said something that is so harsh, i didn't realized, but i mean it. I want to see positive change in your life. Not always depend on or live on a voice over the phone. There are much more things out there you should learn, know, see, listen, touch, sense, hold, believe, discuss, talk, touch, share about. Good luck for growth... Hope that what i said will make you awake, but not too hurt. We always love you. God bless...

What so special about today?

2009-06-21T00:07:00.000-07:00

I am now having drink at coffee bean with Ashley and Lynn. One computer each person, facing to individual's screen.

Actually, we were planning to donate blood today in the HSA blood bank right in front of one of the Singapore MRT station. End up, only Ashley is eligible to donate. Lynn was donated her blood just a week ago, however she received a sms telling her she is eligible to donate blood. She knew she got to wait for another 3 months before she could donate again. She was thinking "why not?" since the sms said it's eligible for her to donate blood. Tried her luck. Thing not going smooth as she wish.

I didn't donate blood for the pass 3 months. I got almost 8 hours of sleep last night, I believe i got enough iron, since I am so fat. ;p However, I was still unable to save life for the moment. Only because I am a foreigner without any fin number and didn't resident in Singapore for the pass 6 months. But just about 2 to 3 months ago I was working there for about 7 months. So strange?

What can i do?? Enjoy coffee. Cheers. Happy papa day!!! I love you!

I don't want to be the hamster on the running roller!

2009-06-19T06:55:00.000-07:00

Just talk to an very old friend of mine over the phone for about one and a half hour. That's the longest phone call i have ever make. This phone call reminded me lots of things, things that need to be changed for good life.

1) I realized that I have always living in a circle. I know my problem, I did changed for several times. After some period when I faced with a newer choice or difficulties, I will go back to the same circle, like the hamster on the same running roller.

2) My friend complaint that I never know how to appreciate myself. I feel I can hardly appreciate what I did, I always feel my idea or anything come out from my mouth is not as good as other people.

3) I need to put down or lower down my expectation. I always demand myself to achieve above the average standard. I may want a lot of things. However I need to let go some of them or I won't be able to move ahead, as those expectation will hold me back each time I try to move ahead.

4) What I really want in my life. Seriously, I am completely lost in my direction. I don't know what I want. I only know I need to become a money making machine.

5) Overly depend on others guidance. All this while I always have some one to assist me in my problem. However, as problems solved, my problem become greater where there are no one could actually help me. And I am still hoping I could get a mentor to assist me. And I know this is completely wrong!!!

If you are close to me, you maybe already knew all this issues. I really need to Make a change. I can't afford to be the hamster on the same running roller in my life!!!

Book of the day

2009-05-10T20:24:00.000-07:00

Book: How to stop worrying and start living

Lesson 1: Live in Day-tight Compartments

Ask yourself a few questions

1) Do I tend to put off living in the present in order to worry about the future, or to yearn for some "magical rose garden over the horizon"?

2) Do I sometimes embitter the present by regretting things that happened in the past - that are over and done with?

3) Do I get up in the morning determined to "Seize the day" - to get the utmost out of these 24 hours?

4) Can I get more out of life by "living in day-tight compartments"?

5) When shall I start to do this? Next week? ... Tomorrow?... Today?

[Sources: Carnegie. D, How to stop worrying and start living - Time tested methods for conquering worry, 1984]

P/s: The above posting is not-for-profit sharing only.

What it takes to cause Anxiety?

2009-05-09T22:13:00.000-07:00

Minored in Psychology doesn't mean you will be free from getting anxiety or any other negative emotional symptoms.

I know it's normal to be anxiety when start to take on new challenge which you never thought of doing that. It's going to be a totally new experience for me to be in Sales.

So, what it takes to cause anxiety?

Maybe I am just still lack of confidence about my own ability, self-esteem is also away from me for the moment.

Just hope that there will be a clinic when I can get consultation and perhaps some medicines or vitamins. LOL.......

心病还需心药医。Don't you think so?

I am still very much alive!!!

2009-05-01T05:05:00.000-07:00

Since the last posting, i have not been updating my blog... Sorry sorry... And i am back here to keep my love one (I mean all my friends and family) updated of my condition...

My previous problem was solved.

And

of course as one problem solved, human will keep looking for new problem.

So I moved on..

my current challenge is to get a new and experience rich job.

hahaha....

and don't worry about me. I am doing fine. ciao first!!!

Dear Housemate,

2009-02-07T21:49:00.000-08:00

This post is directly composed for my dear housemate who always like to address others as "Sho Hai" which mean stupid. I hope that you will understand the purpose of writing this post. Everyone will have their own right to do what they want to do or buy what they want to buy or even listen to what kind of song they want to listen to.

What you need to do is give people a little bit of respect towards people interests or actions. Never use yourself as a guideline for all, you may not be always right. Just have little bit of respect ok? I never mean to be rude to you or trying to make you feel embarrassed. I just want you to understand that I am not happy for what you had said this morning.

I live not because of your comment or your compliment. You don't play any core role in my life. However, anytime if your comment make sense for me, i will still accept it. Again, and Please USE YOUR BRAIN BEFORE YOU TALK, OK? BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT THE GOD TO DECIDE WHO IS STUPID OR WHO IS SMARTER. Thanks for spending your time to read. Hope that the message will go to the person i mentioned.

The Biggest Mistake?

2009-01-21T07:00:00.000-08:00

This two days i was outstation to GKE warehouse to sort out the beret based on the colour tone. However, the biggest issue here is not about where i had went or what i had done.

One of my colleague told me I had done the biggest mistake in my life by not answering his calls and sms (I did so because i took the instruction from my boss). What a joke? I don't know whether i am lucky or the other way round, that my company is so special. Even my colleague told me she had work for people or big company for more then 40 years, this is the first company which have a lot of weird things happening everyday. You will never know what to expect in the next minute.

The moment he told me that i had made my biggest mistake in my life, the first thing that come straight to my mind is "The biggest mistake i had made in year 2008 is to accept this job offer."

If you just happened to read this blog (even the chances are quite neil), I would like to tell you that you are not me, you will never able to do any assumption or fact for me. Many Thanks.

And you had made the biggest mistake by making this fact toward me. You don't know me, even though you thought do.

Wonderful Saturday but not Perfect!

2008-12-27T08:57:00.000-08:00

haha,

It has been a very long time, i didn't hang up with a group of friends. Thanks Suleng, Yuen Kwang, Yong Kang, JJ, and Flix. I had a very nice saturday, however it was not a perfect one. Thanks to the 2 hours and 45 mins movie "Australia". At the end of the movie, we laugh because we don't know the focus of the movie and what are the message that they are trying to tell. Besides that, everthing for me is wonderful! Looking forward to have the next gathering with all of you!!! Tired, can't write more.

Try to make a different!

2008-12-13T05:38:00.000-08:00

Read my blog today, after i had my dinner with my housemate. However, we had a terrible food in the new restaurant after the renovation. I am happy to have your reply and comment.

The phrases that i must always remember is "don't ever give up, try to make a different!", "Comfort zone" and "we will be the generation from zero to hero!".

Thanks for reminded me not to give up too easily, always try my very best to achieve my goals. Since after i graduated, i have no been doing my best to achieve what i want, perhaps i don't really know what i want in life.

Comfort zone is the zone that i am staying until i become zombie (as what my colleague called me). I start to be responsible of what i am doing daily. I started to complain against others, but never to myself. Comfort zone is the zone that i really need to stay away with.

From zero to hero, will be the next goal that i am going to focus start from today. I want to stay out of my comfort zone, i want to fight for my life, i want to be more brave in whatever i am doing. I know from zero to hero will never be easy path, but i truly believe this path will be the one that i am passionate about and will never regret.

Thanks my dearest friends, Sze yan!!!

Dare or dare not?

2008-12-11T07:40:00.000-08:00

After i had read sze yan's blog, i have so much to think now.

Dare or dare not?

She dare to dream, dare to fight, dare to do everything that she want so much.

As i still can remember, I was once dare to dream, fight, and do whatever shit that i want to do, whatever thing that is good for me.
So what's wrong with me now???!!!
Just started to work, i have lost my direction of life. Where was my dream? Where was the path that i always want to pursue? Where are all my strengths? Where are all the creative ideas? Where are my abilities to talk and convince people?

My problem become worst now!!! Just even a small tinny question i also need to ask other people for the answer... I am really gone mad and stupid!!! like what they said:"Bloody stupid Zombie!" Where are all your brain? where are your guts? Where are your dreams? Where are all your spirits? Where are all your passions of life?

Or just one question, Dare or dare not?

Situation for reason or lesson?

2008-11-18T06:26:00.000-08:00

PEOPLE always said, we are being put in a situation for a reason. But who can actually find out what reason it is. Is there any reference or dictionary to define the reason for a particular situation.
Why always this reasons are not revealed. Should we ignore? or keep looking for it without any sign or clue?

I read a book few weeks ago, the book said "Whenever you in any hard situation, there are lessons for you to learn". Sometimes i asked myself, what i need to learn out of this or that situation?? But until now i still don't know what should i learn? or what lesson is that?

Maybe i just have too much questions....

Any help is going to offer??? hello......

Pilihan yang silap atau betul?

2008-11-17T06:34:00.000-08:00

I am doubt that i had made the right decision took up this offer.

No jobscope!

No proper introduction!

No proper learning structure!

No proper guidance!

No sharing of information!

No system in doing everything.

what i see they got is

Quarrel

shouting

arguing

lying

keeping thing to themselves

Demand more than what they give

sigh.....

Why am i always trap in this kind of situation???

why???

Have you been to the Bugis Street in Singapore??? I had just been...

2008-09-02T22:54:00.000-07:00

This is the original plan of place to visit yesterday... Mum asked me to pray at the god of mercy's temple in Bugis Street. My aunt told me this is one of the most famous place in Singapore. Everyone know this place. Okie, thanks to my mum, i got the chance to visit this wonderful place.

If you noticed in the photo above, the Singaporean will consider as little people who visited the temple yesterday. Because, there will be much much more people visit this temple on public holiday and weekend, even the Singapore artist will also come over to this temple to make a wish.

Since everyone is thanking photo, i also take lar... if not how to show that i had visited this place lei.... and of course, i made a wish in front of the god of mercy... and i got a good sign. Hope that my wish will come true soon.

There is also some fortune tellers who is operate their business right in front of the temple. I didn't purchased their services, no money ma... and i am not that superstitious too... am i??? (questionable!!!)

This is the street that you must walk through when and after visited the temple if you choose to use subway to reach Bugis. On my way back, there are quite a lot of thing that catched my eyes. Hmm... let me be the part-time and unpaid tour guide to show you around. ok? hahah super SS!!!

On my lefthand side, i saw a big big laughing buddha which display in front of a shop called skyline to be "molest" by visitors. And if you dare, the buddha will bring you good luck (to be believed). Should i call police???

Besides, you also can shop, shop and shop....Fruits is everywhere...

Lantern is also everywhere, since this month is the mid autumn month for the Chinese.... are you celebrating?

And for me this is definitely a breakthrough.. (for me)...

Another thing catch my attention too.

ok, let me take you to a closer look at the huge statue of the symbol of the mid Autumn festival...
Because of her, we can only celebrate the festival and hear the legend story... and of course eat the mid Autumn cake. hehehe

Next, this is one of the most famous street market in Singapore. Hey, ladies and gentlemen, it's your time.... let's shop..... (i am window shop only, coz i am still unemployed, i know you will understand)

Shop, shop, shop inside the street market.... i can't even walk properly in the market, can you imaging how happening is this place?

This is the super huge fan that i have never see before... and it's really huge.... and it's cooling...

And the following pictures are things or goods that you can buy in this street market...
Accessories ....
Drinks.....
Begs...
souvenirs......
Stamps....
Shoes...

T-shirts....
And here the end of the Bugis Street's tour.....

Last but not least, some of the other places that i had visited....

Today is Wednesday, and why must Wednesday be the Wasabi day?????!?

Hahaha... Stay tune.....

Here i am....

2008-09-01T00:38:00.001-07:00

Here i am jobless in singapore....
want to have more updates... but, some spirit and power pulled me back.... But to tell the truth, the actually reason is i am so so so committed to laziness.

Okie lar, here are some of the photo i took when i was first landed in singapore in the month of August 2008.
I visited this place (Raffles Place) during my 3rd interview with a bistro and restaurant chain company... And i was and in fact i am still feel amazed by the city or the financial city of Singapore. This is one of the entrance to the subway of Singapore.

This picture was actually want to take my self with the subway entrance look, but i forgot to zoom out. Never mind lar, let you all see my big head, and to scare you too.

yeah, this is the one that i wanted to post over here... some of you might be saying:"see desmond become fatter and fatter already." Don't worry i knew already... T_T... Alright, let's move to the next picture...

This is one of the object that rarely found in the place that i have visited before. It's still in Raffles Place.

This is the view before i reach the previous photo's object.

This place is very nice, like what i have only seen in Hong Kong's drama only...

Republic plaze.....

This city is so happening... or maybe i am just outdated (katak di bawah tempurong??!!?)

And during my visit, the Singaporean were celebrating the spirit of Singapore which is their "Merdeka la".

That's all for today... chao first!!!

988's GCMC Live Musical Party 2008

2008-07-13T06:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i went to the 988's GCMC Live Musical Party 2008 at Auto CIty Juru in Penang.
Like last year, but better a little bit, It was a rainy day again (luckily it rained for awhile only).Before it began, me and my friends started to blow the "balloon"(i think so).
Maike looked like he going to faint but luckily he was not.... maybe he just want to rest for awhile before the concert start.
This red shirt gang are the 988's fans club... included me... just for the entry priority ...

The reporter was shooting the audience....
The first singer on show is John.
She was the next one, Deseries (hopefully i didn't spelled her name wrong)!!
He is Lee Zhi Ching.
I don't know her name but her voice is damn powerful!!!
My very favorite singer!!! She sang the first song and every one started to sing together with her!!! and the song's name is "Chong bai" one of my favorite song.
The hostess were interview with her.
I went to this concert because of him actually. I really like his voice.... and his style of singing.
Weird Posting!!!
One of my favorite song sing by Danny won - "Siapa"
Best friend on show!!!
Singapore new artist !!!
Vincy - weng yi!!!
Fang da tong!!! from singapore too.... very nice song he sang!!!
Da zhue ba and fang da tong were challeging each other on the dancing skills!!!

Wu ke chuen
Guang liang!!!! once again all the audience sang together with him!!!!!! He is one of the most successful artist in Malaysia and oversea!!!
The ending with little firework!!!
And finally i can go back home and rest, standing for more than 6 hours (before 5pm to 12am)
BUT, I was satisfied that i went to this concert again. It might be my final concert in Malaysia, coz i might be working in Singapore after i graduated from USM!!!

Today!

2008-07-06T07:10:00.000-07:00

Today, i feel a little bit bored. I went to the seaside to see the sunset. Hmm... very nice right?

I sat on the rock by the seaside, enjoying the sea wind. Even thought it might feel sticky, but it is very nice.

This is the place that i sat just now. At the other side of the sea, is my village.

Afraid of my slippers might fall down to the sea, i put it on the rock, in stead of wearing it.

When enjoying the nice view and the sticky sea wind, i took out my phone and took a SS picture.

The water is not very clear, but it's okay. Because today he is not the core character during my outing.

I was looking at the sun moving down to the sea...

I think this might the only way to hold the sun by hand...

The sun is still moving down, but it seems like there is not much different. :p

Between, i found one very interesting product "Water twisty". Are you the one who created it?

Before i leave, the water level has decreased......

This is the final sunset photo that i took in today's outing.

If you come to Nibong Tebal, just let me know, maybe i can bring you to enjoy the sunset... for FOC!!!!

One more new post!!!!

2008-07-03T06:47:00.000-07:00

Erm...... what to write lei....??? some of you asked me to update my blog.... but recently i don't have much things to share...... so what had happened last few weeks?

1. i got a call from my school and unit peperiksaan because my graduation procedure got some problem...... i rushed back to my school and settled it, hoping it really settled. I called back to the unit peperiksaan, they told me that i should be able to graduate on time...... really hope for it.

2. I got a call from a human resource provider company, offered me an interview for a bank apprenticeship in Standard Charted bank on this Saturday in USM. I will attend the interview, but i will just take it as one of my interview experience because i am actually not interested to work for bank.

3. Still working in the same company for internship, everyday doing the same tasks. Eat at the same kopitiam, always wear the @ t-shirt.... and taking almost similar breakfast every morning.... blek...... rasa nak muntah!!!

4. Got to know that my convo date is on 17th August, 9am......

5. Today my sister-in-law had successfully delivered a boy baby........ well done for her, and for the baby, welcome to the ONG family!!!! wahahahahah........

Demonstration!!!!

2008-06-16T06:44:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday near my housing area, there is an demonstration for religion purposes. Following are some of the picture that i took during that event!!! Check it out!!! This is one of the "flower car" that carry several "daughter of god"....

At the behind part of that "flower car", there is a "god of mercy"......

Down at the road, are some of the enthusiasts that help in pulling and controlling the car......

I think they were tired...... therefore, they sat down.... Big clap for them!!!!

VIA Signature Strengths

2008-06-15T08:41:00.001-07:00

Here are your scores on the VIA Signature Strengths Survey. For how to interpret and use your scores, see the book Authentic Happiness. The ranking of the strengths reflects your overall ratings of yourself on the 24 strengths in the survey, how much of each strength you possess. Your top five, especially those marked as Signature Strengths, are the ones to pay attention to and find ways to use more often.

Your Top Strength

Fairness, equity, and justice
Treating all people fairly is one of your abiding principles. You do not let your personal feelings bias your decisions about other people. You give everyone a chance.

Your Second Strength

Leadership
You excel at the tasks of leadership: encouraging a group to get things done and preserving harmony within the group by making everyone feel included. You do a good job organizing activities and seeing that they happen.

Your Third Strength

Citizenship, teamwork, and loyalty
You excel as a member of a group. You are a loyal and dedicated teammate, you always do your share, and you work hard for the success of your group.

Your Fourth Strength

Honesty, authenticity, and genuineness
You are an honest person, not only by speaking the truth but by living your life in a genuine and authentic way. You are down to earth and without pretense; you are a "real" person.

Your Fifth Strength

Industry, diligence, and perseverance
You work hard to finish what you start. No matter the project, you "get it out the door" in timely fashion. You do not get distracted when you work, and you take satisfaction in completing tasks.

I think it's fake!!!

2008-06-13T07:14:00.000-07:00

If you put both together, you can see the upper money is smaller than the bottom money...
But if you put both money side-by-side, it's very hard to find any difference besides it's size...
Somehow i got it, but i spend it. hahaha!!!!
luckily it's just one dollar.....

Count down for 08-08-08& 08:08:08

2008-06-11T06:52:00.000-07:00

8th August 2008, Eight o’clock, Eight minute, and Eight second will be the kick start of Olympic 2008 in Beijing.

It’s the day of glorious for all the Chinese in the world no matter

Who you are;

Where you were BORN;

Where you are STAYING;

What NATIONALITY you are;

Whether you are RICH or POOR;

Whether you are SINGLE or MARRIED;

Whether you are STUDYING or WORKING;

Whether you are AGREE or DISAGREE with me;

Whether you are MALE or FEMALE or even SHE-MALE;

This is our GLORIOUS!!! Olympic, here we come!!!

"Beijing welcomes you!" is the slogan to show the warmest welcome to all the countries in the world, which represented by five event characters, FuWa:
BeiBei
JingJing
HuanHuan
YingYing
NiNi

Beijing Huan Ying Ni!!!

New Iphone 3G phone for only $199 and $299!!!

2008-06-10T07:33:00.001-07:00

8GB for $199, 16GB for $299....

This is big!!!

2008-06-10T07:08:00.000-07:00

Happy Dragon Boat Festival!!!

2008-06-08T06:54:00.000-07:00

This is one of the core food that we must eat during the Dragon Boat Festival. We called it as "Bak Chang". haha.... There is a historical story that created this wonderful yet high calorie food. I took at least 5 pcs today.... Must put more effort for exercise lor.....

Happy Dragon Boat Festival to all my friends, include you who are reading my blog now.... Wahaha.....

Today very suai (unfortunate)!!!

2008-06-07T08:42:00.000-07:00

First suai thing.
I went to a Cyber Cafe near my house this afternoon, but the line was suck!!! I upload my photo into the previous post, i waited more than half an hour still not yet done. MSN messenger is automatically disconnected after signed in for so many times.

Second suai thing.
I want to print my interim report, i went to parit buntar the first shop that i went they said they are not providing the printing services. They told me another shop, i went, but their computer just spoiled. They told me to go to another shop, ok fine, i went, the shop worker told me their computer spoiled also, need to wait until next monday. Finally, i decided to go to the pusat bandar of parit buntar. I finally found a computer shop which are open on saturday evening and are providing printing service. Do you know what, one page with a small USM logo, cost about RM3.00, Black and white printing RM0.50 per page. Crazy right.? I try to bargain but the answer they gave is NO!!! OK, I print all my report in black and white including the cover as well. 10 pages cost me RM5.00. FXXK!!!

The most suai thing!!!!
Mid-night of today, i went to the same CC again. Do you know what happened to me? I terpijak Dog Shit!!! Which is very unbelieveable for me. and this is so embarrassing and i only realized it when i went to the computer. Everyone here, looking like a weird people.... Cham...... T_T....

LOVE is Under Developing!!!

2008-06-07T08:34:00.000-07:00

Various human behaviour had made the LOVE is Under Developing.

How do you develop your Love?

Who are you developing your love for?

Girlfriend /boyfriend?

Parent?

Family?

Friends?

Strangers?

Or yourselves?

Don’t forget to appreciate and Love every single person that comes into your life……

Hunting tonight!!!

2008-05-31T06:42:00.000-07:00

Let's start hunting tonight. Surprise? Want to know what i hunt? I am not too sure whether you like to hunt all this before this or not. But i am definately crazy about it all the time, especially when i passed through pasar malam. :P

I usually like to hunt for food in any pasar malam, that's the reason why i always can't loose weight. T_T..... and always overweight. But it's ok, like what most of the people tell me, eat now, diet tomorrow. Wahahaha.... (suck in determination right?)

Let me show you, what had hunt in this wonderful saturday night(a pasar malam near my house)......

I bought the "sotong" ball for RM 1.00, two sousage for RM 1.00, and five pieces of "keropok" for RM 1.00.

that's all for today, stay tune......

Where am i?

2008-05-28T07:24:00.000-07:00

Suddenly, i discover something very interesting in Hong May Ling's facebook.
Here it is.....

I think this picture was taken by May Ling during NLDS in UKM 2005. That night is definately an unforgetable night for me and my LC members. Do you know why? Hahahaha.... Coz we won't the cultural performance for the Global Village and we beated more than 7 other LC. Wahahaha....

Can anyone guest which one is me? I am quite sure that you won't be able to recognize me, coz i also can't recognize myself in this picture. I was forced to expose my reputation (my body) for that performance.... Big "KORBAN".......

All this are now become my invaluable memory in my life. I never did this during that moment. I am proud of myself!!!! Wohoo......

Prince Caspian

2008-05-25T07:36:00.000-07:00

Today i watched "The chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian" in the GSC cinema at Sunway Carnival mall. In the movie, there is not much unexpected cine.

After two to three years after the first episode of Narnia, Now they just come out with the second one. They took quite a long time. If not mistaken, when i watched the first episode, i were in Muar, Johor after attended the National Leadership Development Seminar in UKM. Chia yin, mei qi, and lai chuang took me to Mahkota in Melacca to watch the Narnia in GSC too.

One character in the movie got my attention, which is the mouse's fighter. He is very funny. wahahaha.... He is brave too. Even though there isn't much unexpected stuff happen in the movie, but this movie worth to watch.

I can't remember when was the last movie that i watch with my friend. If not mistaken, i watched that movie about two months ago, and that was a lam movie that i have ever watch. The story tell some kind of a ghost VS psycho story. It was weird and not scary.

Don't know i need to wait for how long to watch another movie with friends?

I miss those days.

2008-05-21T06:17:00.000-07:00

I miss those days when I was just entered University;
It was unexpected but excited.

I miss those days when I made friends;
We were innocent, true, care for each other.

I miss those days when I first attended Malam Mesra;
It was not difficult to dance.

I miss those days when I joined AIESEC;
It became one of my passionate other than studies.

I miss those days when I attended every Weekly Session;
Because I will make sure I will be free on Sunday night.

I miss those days when I attended National Leadership Development Seminar;
I lived seven challenging days which seriously made me crazy.

I miss those days when I was pulled water and passed the election;
Surprised, achieved, and recognized were how I felt.

I miss those days when I first felt failure;
I learned to stand up again from where I fell.

I miss those days when I became Director of People Development;
Believe in myself was another chapter from life learning experience.

I miss those days when we kept arguing for decisions;
At the end of the day, we are so close to each other.

I miss those days when I met wonderful people in University;
It was short in its period but it will be remembered.

I miss those days when I met YOU;
THANK YOU for come into my life;
YOU might make my life painful or hurtful without any intentions;
But you definitely made my life wonderful and beautiful.

Weekend lor......

2008-05-09T06:09:00.000-07:00

After five days of working, it's finally come to my favorite weekend. The reasons are:
1. I don't need to wake up on seven in the morning.
2. I don't need to work for the whole day.
3. I don't need to do things that i don't like to do or things that are not in my interest.
4. I don't need to meet with the Admin Clerk.
5. I don't need to pretend that i am doing work (when all the work is done).
6. I don't need to be creative of finding work to do or keep myself busy.
7. I don't need to stay in an environment that are very hot (coz the air-cond is spoiled for more than a week).
8. I don't need to wear those dirty and hairy hand glove that will make me feel itchy.
9. I don't need to use or think of ways to communicate to foreign workers that are not good in either malay or english which confuses them and me.
10. I don't need to touch or focus on the magnifying glass to find the error that occur in the chips boards.
11. I don't need to eat fried mee or keow tiao for breakfast.
12. I don't need to sleep before 12pm.
13. I don't need to expose myself to or touch the chemical stuff which are so disgusting.
14. I don't need to punch my attendance card.
15. Finally, i don't need to work as an operator in Northern Electronic Sdn. Bhd.

I will fully utilize this 2 wonderful day..... hooray!!!!

Great Hope Equiped with Great Disappointment.

2008-05-05T06:19:00.000-07:00

As required by my degree, I am now doing my internship in a company called Northem Electronic Sdn. Bhd. Me and Kar Chuan were offerred a position in this company. First day of work, both of us were very excited because it's very near to our home, so we can wake up late then others people at the same time have more time in sleeping. But I learnt a lesson, "pian yi mei hao huo", which means thing get done easily doesn't means that thing is a good thing or as what we expected.

When started a few days of work, we finally realized we were employed as an operator and not an intern as what we apply. The thing become worst when we also realized we couldn't change or switch to other company, which make me feel FUCK UP!!!!

Our routine work in the company are checking the chips board under the magnifying glass, packing/un-packing things, "ronda-ronda" around the factory, and sitting there doing nothing.

I was hoping that I can learnt something out of this internship, but god treat me very nice, I learn things that are not related to my field of studies. From now onwards, we need to stay with the company for 11 weeks more, and we are not sure what can we learn.

Besides than all those routine works that we do, one more things we need to do as our daily activity is try or pretend to be very busy with the work, or get things done slowly when supervisor are not there. Because there are too little things for us to do, and we need to stay busy or we will get scold.

The lecturer asked me to stay with the company and use my interpersonal skill to negotiate with the company asking them to let me do anything that related to my field of study, which it seems quiet not possible. (What to do, still need to try it out. T_T)....

That's all for today, will keep you guys updated...... T_T.....

Getting my journey started!

2008-05-04T06:59:00.000-07:00

I hope it's not too late to start writing blog now, as most of you already have your own blog maybe years ago. I alway force myself to expose to new things or learn new things. Sometimes I am not too sure whether those things are really what I wanna learn or exposed to, hopefully it's not a stupid philosophy of mine. I am not too sure, since when I strongly believe that to be successful or as a human being, I need to keep myself learning new things nomatter what it is. Sometimes, I got confuses of my decision, the path that I choose. Am I doing it right? There are a lots of path to choose for my journey. I admit that I am much more luckiest that a lots of people around me, but sometimes I am just too greedy, I wish everything could come or happen as what I wish. But I am always wrong, things won't come with empty effort of hardwork. From the first season fo the taiwan one million star singing competition, the 3rd runner-up did mentioned that "Success doesn't nessasary comes with hardwork, but without hardwork, success is not coming to you". His Father added, "there are 2 ways of doing thing, one is give up totally, or get it done perfectly". For me even watching TV programme can learn things too, just how you judge or learn the value from it.